To those who know me, and to those that have read what I have written already, it is plain that I tell it how it is. No messing! Those that know me should know by now not to be offended by it, and those that don't can make their own choices!
I don't intend my writing to all be inflammatory, its just opening my thoughts and expressing myself and learning about myself and others as I do that.
This is a small explanation further to what I have already written, there will be no further and names will never be used, perhaps pseudonyms, but no names, so don't ask!
Thursday, 3 November 2011
Wednesday, 2 November 2011
Is it meant to be intimidating?
So, I'm new to this blogging business...when you share your blog, are you meant to be scared?
I don't name names or talk about specifics but when people start to view your thoughts, is that meant to be scary? Are thoughts meant to be private, because if they are, I missed a trick a long time ago as I've never been good at keeping my mouth shut and not telling the world what I think! Its part of the growing I'm aiming towards...
All this growing...makes it sound like I'm deliberately trying to get fat! In reference to an earlier post, the friend issue, I have reached out! Not to those that have caused me to feel wronged but to new people...possibilities of new friends! Again, exciting or scary???
I don't name names or talk about specifics but when people start to view your thoughts, is that meant to be scary? Are thoughts meant to be private, because if they are, I missed a trick a long time ago as I've never been good at keeping my mouth shut and not telling the world what I think! Its part of the growing I'm aiming towards...
All this growing...makes it sound like I'm deliberately trying to get fat! In reference to an earlier post, the friend issue, I have reached out! Not to those that have caused me to feel wronged but to new people...possibilities of new friends! Again, exciting or scary???
A little explanation!
I have realised that I posted my first entry without any introduction...how rude of me!
Small Pink Chickens? No particular reason really, do I need one?! I just liked the sound of it!
I decided that there is very little space within life to just talk...whatever it is about, just talk. So here it is, the avenue to do that...talk.
It may not always be inspiring to and to many it may be nonsense, but if it is, tell me that! Nothing better in the world than something that provokes an opinion even if the opinion is 'this is bland'! I may be opening myself up to many harsh words but if that is your opinion then that's fine by me, we are all entitled to it...
Small Pink Chickens? No particular reason really, do I need one?! I just liked the sound of it!
I decided that there is very little space within life to just talk...whatever it is about, just talk. So here it is, the avenue to do that...talk.
It may not always be inspiring to and to many it may be nonsense, but if it is, tell me that! Nothing better in the world than something that provokes an opinion even if the opinion is 'this is bland'! I may be opening myself up to many harsh words but if that is your opinion then that's fine by me, we are all entitled to it...
Small rant...
Is it just me, or is it difficult to find people you can rely on?
Its not that there is malice involved, or at least I don't think so, but for someone who has always liked to think of themselves as a good judge of character, it seems that I have been let down by friends once too often and can count true friends on one hand...those people that even if you don't see them for months or sometimes years, the friendship you have created is the same as it always was. Then there are those that you spend a lot of time with relatively to the amount of spare time you have with a busy life, and those are the ones that should be relied upon and those are the ones that stab you in the back and hurt you the most.
The question is, do you confront them about it? Or do you let it go and forgive?
Forgiving...now there is a concept, one that is alien to many of us, and takes years to develop and use. Through my 'journey' of growing and accepting the past and the issues of life, I have started to see a Chinese medical practitioner. It is her who suggested that through this growth and the healing that perhaps the things that are bothering me need to be released instead of dealt with, and that my friendships should possibly be reassessed...am I getting out of my friendships what I need and what I expect, or are they really just hurting me more than they should? This leads me to further questions, like where do you meet people that think in the same way as you do? The sort of people that as friends there is no real effort involved in conversation, it is natural and comfortable and flows, the result being that you feel more fulfilled because of this friendship. One where you can talk about anything, openly and freely without fear of recrimination...do they exist? These friendships, are they real? Or is it unrealistic to expect this kind of relationship with another person?
Over the years, and more recently also, I have felt let down by people more times than I feel comfortable with...but do I live with it? Or do I address it with the people involved/responsible and live with the possible recriminations?
Its not that there is malice involved, or at least I don't think so, but for someone who has always liked to think of themselves as a good judge of character, it seems that I have been let down by friends once too often and can count true friends on one hand...those people that even if you don't see them for months or sometimes years, the friendship you have created is the same as it always was. Then there are those that you spend a lot of time with relatively to the amount of spare time you have with a busy life, and those are the ones that should be relied upon and those are the ones that stab you in the back and hurt you the most.
The question is, do you confront them about it? Or do you let it go and forgive?
Forgiving...now there is a concept, one that is alien to many of us, and takes years to develop and use. Through my 'journey' of growing and accepting the past and the issues of life, I have started to see a Chinese medical practitioner. It is her who suggested that through this growth and the healing that perhaps the things that are bothering me need to be released instead of dealt with, and that my friendships should possibly be reassessed...am I getting out of my friendships what I need and what I expect, or are they really just hurting me more than they should? This leads me to further questions, like where do you meet people that think in the same way as you do? The sort of people that as friends there is no real effort involved in conversation, it is natural and comfortable and flows, the result being that you feel more fulfilled because of this friendship. One where you can talk about anything, openly and freely without fear of recrimination...do they exist? These friendships, are they real? Or is it unrealistic to expect this kind of relationship with another person?
Over the years, and more recently also, I have felt let down by people more times than I feel comfortable with...but do I live with it? Or do I address it with the people involved/responsible and live with the possible recriminations?
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